ああなんだか、おとといの言葉のやりとりで
ルイと一生の親友になった気がした
どんな関係性になったとしても、ずっと暖かさを感じる存在に変わった気がした。
もうルイはひとりじゃないよ。どんな場面になっても、私は大切なひとを裏切ったりしないよ
どんなに私が幸せに浸かろうとも、私は大切な人の存在をないがしろにはしないように努めるよ。

- あに　+るい

- I think I said too much things!
My head hurts! :(

Anyway thanks for getting a call. it was a good talk
enjoy the guitar. I practice it too.

+ Annie, you did nothing wrong. hurting your head was not karma.

I'm sorry I wasn't in a good mood for talking last night,
your call really surprised me.
But anyway, you should try with this guy and do your thing,
you are a very special person and you deserve to be happy.

- Thanks Louis, you are a really good adviser to me.

I care about kind of everybody who connects to my life,
but of course it's quite difficult or impossible to pay attention
to all of them... I realized it at some points of my life

I may start getting small depression I think
when I become happy, somebody becomes unhappy,
until finding a good answer to this, it's difficult for me to feel free.

to be honest, it's really really easier for me to decide to live by myself,
but as I imagine that I live by myself can be a cause of boring/loneliness
in 10, 20 years, I want to find a way to be happy with somebody.

doing something for important people(maybe partner or kids) to try
making them comfortable/joy, will be happier than making myself happy I think
That guy is not with me anymore by the way, I left his place without any promises

I'm really feeling crazy

- I may need some help now, but I don't know how to ask it only good way is sleeping now maybe :(
you don't need to be responsible for me,
so if you get tired with me, please cut me out.
but I want a notice with some words before this. I don't like waiting for a silence


+ No I won't cut you out Annie

Even if we don't work out I hope we'll be friends forever

I know it's weird, I'm not sure how I feel about all this.

I just want you to be happy


- people are greedy.
I'm just not brave enough to die, once it continues,
want to get something better. that's good but awful


+ I understand, I feel like that too


- sorry, I don't want to make you confused

+ It's not your fault Annie

I do these things to myself

- If I say my happiest moment ever,
it was when you gave me a kiss just after I woke up

because,

as long as I remember, my parents never gave me some warm body skinship like giving a hug
when I was little,
and my sister, kind of my first boyfriend, best friend,
parents, somehow they're so lazy about replying to any contacts.
it's not a right word but I've felt that I was always ignored

so I already appreciate you Louis, greatly.
Even though it was a short time, you gave me a wonderful moment


+ That story is very sweet
I don't know what will happen in the future Annie,
but what ever does happen know that I care about you a lot.
You deserve that kind of happiness

You deserve ALL kinds of happiness

- you do too Louis