im afraid of "lose" something.
i mean, not winner loser's lose.
recently, im afraid of losing money... although i'had saved my money enough
was because so hard period during university or working
sometimes i ate Miso soup, put flower inside to make stomach satisfied.
sometimes i ate just potetos for a week, in a stable... coz i didn't have, time,
and when i think about using money, my actions are saved.
recently i don't buy veges... actually, my main diet here is cornflakes, is cheap.
of course i love them.

i walked and walked not to use train or bus, cos they were expensive for me, when i was younger.
when i find a thing, 100yen, i ignored it, if i want to buy that more than 3 times, i bought it.
just 100yen.... i spent time in front of shelf...

Im afraid of losing love too. my love, others love.
originally, i don't have any feeling of this love, if it means big "like" i can understand.
but still difficult for me.


英文とは全然内容違うけど、
病気というのでできないことはあって　それは本当悔しいね。